cant express out

lately...

i have a problem on not showing how i feel inside... everything i show now is fake.. Fake

it started when i first start my holiday on the 12 Feb...

when the mess start... i can't help but look at the mistakes and make myself look bad....

make myself worried that the past will repeat itself...

and with a holiday so short... i can't help but not to enjoy it and everything i do... it will remind me of the past....

because the past was a long holiday and i enjoy to the fullest tat i was disappointed in the end....